frustration | those things that drive me mad

I’ve felt pretty frustrated at times lately.  Not at anyone in particular, although often with myself.  Especially when I forgot my SD card AGAIN, but I think I’ve finally learnt a lesson with that one.  (She says).

But yes, Lily does love a rant (as people around me know) and is in the mood to hammer it all out on a keyboard right now.  Accompanied by a frustrated-looking photo from last weekend’s shoot because lack of daylight is another item on my ‘frustration list’.  I’m a positive person usually, promise!  Tiredness brings it out in me.  And boy I am TIRED today.  *Makes self another coffee*

— I’m frustrated by deadlines that I just can’t meet.  Specifically, a textiles coursework deadline that we were supposed to hand in this whole unit’s worth of work today in order to begin the next one on Monday, and I just didn’t quite get everything finished.  Which I’m annoyed at myself for, because now I’ll be paying catchup, ugh.  Really wanted to avoid that one.  I haven’t been slacking with work or anything, I’ve just not managed to fit it all in to complete my final piece, journal, personal study, design sheets, etc. etc….

— Frustration isn’t helped by not having chance to go to the gym this week.  Endorphins needed.

— I get really frustrated thinking of all the blog changes I want to make, but haven’t the time to.  I know how large and hellish a task it can be!  Still feel like a refresh and a revamp wouldn’t do any harm though.  A while ago I toyed with the idea of switching to a magazine style layout to have a wider variety of posts showing on the homepage, but I ran a poll / discussed it in a twitter chat the other week and the general consensus was that most prefer a traditional blog style anyway.  So I’ll not rush to make that switch.  However, there are a bunch of other changes I’d like to make.  Rehash the categories a little, change my header… many things on the list.  I’m well aware of how much of a rabbit hole blog design is though – once you start making one or two tweaks, you can’t help but notice 10 other things to add to the list!  I did finally get round to starting a Joli House Facebook page this week though, so here’s a shameless plug if ever there was one.  Fancy giving it a like? 😀 😀 😀

— Not waking up when I intended to frustrates the hell out of me.  how I manage to turn off so many alarms in my sleep is beyond me.   Hate waking up an hour later than I’d planned feeling annoyed at myself.

— I’m feeling frustrated with education, or rather, frustrated with being stuck in timetabled education.  Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy college and the environment and being around everyone, but I just feel like I’ll work so much better when dictating my own schedule and not wasting hours a day on a bus.  I won’t be lazy, I’ll probably get more done and turn into one of those workaholics who just never stops.  After 14 years of being in school / college I’m just antsy to be out.  How people don’t go insane staying at the same school for sixth form is beyond me!  Change = needed.

— Blog ideas are a constant frustration.  Somehow those hundreds of titles sitting in my drafts that just don’t seem right.  So annoying when a good title doesn’t actually give you good ideas to write about, or would take more hours in the day to prepare for than you physically have.

— My cat keeps swiping for me.  Bit of a petty (lol) one I know.  No idea what’s come over him lately, but if I so much as move an inch when he’s in the vicinity he sees it as an invitation to ‘play’.  By play, I mean scratch.  Cheers pal.

— I’m especially frustrated when 2 hours have passed and I don’t feel like I’ve achieved anything but don’t feel like I’ve had a rest either.  How?!?  Part of me thinks I’m a hard worker, and part of me thinks I’m just such a talented procrastinator I don’t even realise when I’m procrastinating.

OK I’ll stop ranting now and go to bed.  Seriously looking forward to this weekend away!  I haven’t seen nearly as much of the East coast as I’d like so a little jaunt in Scarborough’s direction should be nice.  Completely forgetting about / ignoring the batch of work I have for this weekend would be nice too, but that’s sadly not quite gonna happen, grrr.  Sunday night is gonna be SO FUN.

Rightttt I’ll actually stop ranting now.  Goodnight!

lily kate x

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