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frustration | those things that drive me mad

Portrait of teen girl taken in Moor Park Preston Lancashire

I’ve felt pretty frustrated at times lately.  Not at anyone in particular, although often with myself.  Especially when I forgot my SD card AGAIN, but I think I’ve finally learnt a lesson with that one.  (She says).

But yes, Lily does love a rant (as people around me know) and is in the mood to hammer it all out on a keyboard right now.  Accompanied by a frustrated-looking photo from last weekend’s shoot because lack of daylight is another item on my ‘frustration list’.  I’m a positive person usually, promise!  Tiredness brings it out in me.  And boy I am TIRED today.  *Makes self another coffee*

— I’m frustrated by deadlines that I just can’t meet.  Specifically, a textiles coursework deadline that we were supposed to hand in this whole unit’s worth of work today in order to begin the next one on Monday, and I just didn’t quite get everything finished.  Which I’m annoyed at myself for, because now I’ll be paying catchup, ugh.  Really wanted to avoid that one.  I haven’t been slacking with work or anything, I’ve just not managed to fit it all in to complete my final piece, journal, personal study, design sheets, etc. etc….

— Frustration isn’t helped by not having chance to go to the gym this week.  Endorphins needed.

— I get really frustrated thinking of all the blog changes I want to make, but haven’t the time to.  I know how large and hellish a task it can be!  Still feel like a refresh and a revamp wouldn’t do any harm though.  A while ago I toyed with the idea of switching to a magazine style layout to have a wider variety of posts showing on the homepage, but I ran a poll / discussed it in a twitter chat the other week and the general consensus was that most prefer a traditional blog style anyway.  So I’ll not rush to make that switch.  However, there are a bunch of other changes I’d like to make.  Rehash the categories a little, change my header… many things on the list.  I’m well aware of how much of a rabbit hole blog design is though – once you start making one or two tweaks, you can’t help but notice 10 other things to add to the list!  I did finally get round to starting a Joli House Facebook page this week though, so here’s a shameless plug if ever there was one.  Fancy giving it a like? 😀 😀 😀

Not waking up when I intended to frustrates the hell out of me.  how I manage to turn off so many alarms in my sleep is beyond me.   Hate waking up an hour later than I’d planned feeling annoyed at myself.

— I’m feeling frustrated with education, or rather, frustrated with being stuck in timetabled education.  Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy college and the environment and being around everyone, but I just feel like I’ll work so much better when dictating my own schedule and not wasting hours a day on a bus.  I won’t be lazy, I’ll probably get more done and turn into one of those workaholics who just never stops.  After 14 years of being in school / college I’m just antsy to be out.  How people don’t go insane staying at the same school for sixth form is beyond me!  Change = needed.

Blog ideas are a constant frustration.  Somehow those hundreds of titles sitting in my drafts that just don’t seem right.  So annoying when a good title doesn’t actually give you good ideas to write about, or would take more hours in the day to prepare for than you physically have.

My cat keeps swiping for me.  Bit of a petty (lol) one I know.  No idea what’s come over him lately, but if I so much as move an inch when he’s in the vicinity he sees it as an invitation to ‘play’.  By play, I mean scratch.  Cheers pal.

— I’m especially frustrated when 2 hours have passed and I don’t feel like I’ve achieved anything but don’t feel like I’ve had a rest either.  How?!?  Part of me thinks I’m a hard worker, and part of me thinks I’m just such a talented procrastinator I don’t even realise when I’m procrastinating.

OK I’ll stop ranting now and go to bed.  Seriously looking forward to this weekend away!  I haven’t seen nearly as much of the East coast as I’d like so a little jaunt in Scarborough’s direction should be nice.  Completely forgetting about / ignoring the batch of work I have for this weekend would be nice too, but that’s sadly not quite gonna happen, grrr.  Sunday night is gonna be SO FUN.

Rightttt I’ll actually stop ranting now.  Goodnight!

lily kate x

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  • Reply
    30th January 2016 at 12:22 am

    hey lovely,you need a break and deserve a break so you go and enjoy your break! Have a great weekend hunni and always remember that you really are an awesome young lady xx

    • Reply
      lily kate
      1st February 2016 at 6:41 pm

      I did enjoy my break thank you Hollie! I’m the kind of person that can’t really enjoy relaxing whilst I know I have stuff to do, which can be a nightmare because I just keep going until I feel like I’m as done as possible.
      Thank you so much for always being so lovely!

  • Reply
    Bash Harry
    30th January 2016 at 3:54 am

    Hey Lily, take a break. It’s okay if you’re frustrated as long as you know it’s not going to last. I know the feeling of frustration for education and blogs. But for me, taking a break has always helped. If not, I’m always here <3

    xx Bash | H E Y   B A S H | bloglovin’

    • Reply
      lily kate
      1st February 2016 at 6:43 pm

      Bash you babe <3 <3 <3 Frustration with yourself is the worst kind of frustration!

  • Reply
    30th January 2016 at 9:34 am

    A-levels are the most stressful time – but you can do it!! You’re one very awesome person – go team Lily!!
    I get the frustration of timetabled education… It’s why I’m taking a gap year – after 18 years in school, it’s just nice to be doing something a little different. Big hugs lovely, and enjoy your weekend!! Xx

    • Reply
      lily kate
      1st February 2016 at 6:47 pm

      They’re a nightmare aren’t they! I carried on the extra one too, which I don’t regret because I really enjoy it, but boy does it mean I have a lot of work!
      I can’t wait to hear all about your gap year! I’m sure it’ll be amazing 😀

  • Reply
    31st January 2016 at 12:36 pm

    Oh my gosh the stress for textiles deadlines is so real! My exam starts on on Monday as well and I barely finished my last lot of coursework, on top of this I have photography as well. I think in order to cope I just try and have some stress free time to myself, you can only do so much till you burn yourself out!

    Infinity of fashion// Lucy Jane

    • Reply
      lily kate
      1st February 2016 at 6:50 pm

      Art subjects are so stressful aren’t they!!! Don’t think I could cope with two. We got the new themes today though and I’m really happy with the options. 🙂
      Thank you for commenting!

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