Feel like I’m in some weird kind of limbo at the minute! Exams are over but college isn’t, and OMG these last couple of weeks are dragging. I don’t even particularly dislike being there, but c’monnnn I want summer already. I wanna focus on other stuff. Study leave, you tease.
I’ve been trying to get my act together, and failing miserably! I’ve tried making a bloggy plan (of sorts) ’cause it’d sure as hell make my life easier but never, ever seems to work for me. Who’s gonna plan a post about the dining room table fgs? Who’s gonna write a post about the dining room table?!? What a weirdo…
Life in general feels kinda limbo-ish (if anybody has a better phrase, holla) at the minute. 17 is a funny age to be! Not an adult by a long stretch (although I did contemplate buying a plate yesterday and if that isn’t a sign of my ripening old age then nothing is) but not a kid any more either. I’ve seen loads of articles and blog posts about 17 being a ‘special’ age. The film industry always seems to agree too – Baby in Dirty Dancing (aka my girl crush), Sandy in Grease, Bella in Twilight… I could go on but you get my drift. There’s definitely something about this age. In some ways I want to be 18, but at the same time I kinda want to stay seventeen forever. Fairly sure I’ll wish to be 17 again when I have big responsibilities and grown up boring stuff to deal with!
Over the last couple of weeks a few people have told me they’ve changed their minds about returning to college in September, and are thinking of taking other paths instead. Obviously not everyone chose college in the first place, but it’s just hit me that people are making big(ish) life choices and going off in different directions. Until now we’ve all been on the same path. At 15, we were all in the same boat, education-wise. I think 17 is the age when the boat hits slightly choppy and we all sail off on our own! OK so that’s the weirdest metaphor I’ve ever heard but yeah, 17 (maybe 18) is when stuff starts to get real. For some of us.
Loads of people at college are looking round universities at the minute. Quite a few are gonna take a gap year first, which sounds like a good idea tbh. Just some breathing space before making massive decisions. Seems like a great plan if you can manage it! Especially if there are other potential opportunities.
Hopefully, 5 years from now, my decision to study with the Open University will mean that in addition to an MA or MSC, I’ll have some great work and travel opportunities under my belt. Loads of people have said I sound like I’ve got it all sorted and planned out, but I really don’t! I got a ‘plan’ that means I don’t actually need a plan yet, cos that plan’s a flexible one. Now the word ‘plan’ is starting to sound really strange and I’m gonna leave that there. I’m also glad that I’m not feeling pressured to sign myself up for this, that and the other. There’s talk of EPQ projects at college – exactly the kind of thing I’d have rushed to sign myself up for had a high school equivalent existed. Not this time though! No entry requirements = no pressure. Grades are for myself, not an application form.
So, what do you remember of your 17th year?
lily kate x
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Benn21st June 2015 at 11:03 pm
Can definitely relate to this!
The part about how we’re all beginning to take different paths and be more individualistic hit me hard. I never really thought about the fact we’ve all been on the same path up to this point, until now.
Great post, as per.
lily kate22nd June 2015 at 6:24 pm
I think everyone in our year probably feels the same to an extent! We’ve just (almost) all followed the formula so far, and now it’s all going all over the place haha 😛
Benn21st June 2015 at 11:07 pm
Can definitely relate to this!
The part about how we’ve all began to make big decisions and be more individualistic hit me hard. Never really felt that sense of choice in what I do in my life, up until realising that.
Great post, as per!
Bash22nd June 2015 at 11:52 am
I’m 17 too! I know it’s this BIG year in films, like something grand is going to happen. And yes, it always feels like something new has happened, something that didn’t when I was 16 or 15. I think being seventeen is that perfect coming-of-age-age. Almost an adult but not quite, young enough but mature. It’s crazy!
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lily kate22nd June 2015 at 6:27 pm
Yay for 17 year old bloggers! I think this would be a good sge to stay forever tbh!
Thank you so much for always commenting, it means so much!
Bekah22nd June 2015 at 4:26 pm
I’m 21 and am relating to this! It’s the same when you leave university – strange to have all pretty much followed the path of primary, then high school, then sixth form, then university, but now my friends and I are all venturing to different places and countries even!
It’s completely normal to feel a bit lost – stuck in between wanting to stay young and wanting to have the freedom to be an adult. Just enjoy everything as it comes, and it’s great that you know already that you want to do OU. That’s a step more than most people know, I can assure you! 🙂
Keep smiling dear – school’s nearly out for summer! 🙂
lily kate22nd June 2015 at 6:32 pm
I can imagine it’s similar again but on a greater scale when you’re 21 and everybody’s lives really are totally different! Probably gonna feel a bit lost ‘in between’ my whole life haha 😛
This summer has a lot to live up to!
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